 | | | Okay, are you ready for all of this? First of all, are you wondering why I'm going to tell you all of this? Well, the reason is that I want people to be clear of the type of person that I am. And well, deep down inside, I hope that I can inspire others as Jess did me.
Back in 1999 I began to turn towards someone more for no apparent reason really. My life just started taking a course it never had before. I started turning towards God and my faith in him was developing majorly. I realized how much he's blessed me in my life and felt that I should pay him back. I decided that I'd like to save myself for marriage. You know....remain a virgin. I never though took it too seriously, that is, until later. In the fall of '99 one night I prayed and asked God to have me dream of something in my future, anything, I was so in awe of what my future would be. So I fell asleep, and that night I dreamed of myself getting married. And in the dream this guy that I was marrying took a ring off my finger and replaced it with my wedding ring. I woke up and just blew it off thinking...lol omigosh, that was a messed up dream. In Feb. of 2000 I read an article on Jessica Simpson in Teen People magazine that was titled "Sex Can Wait" Naturally it caught my eye and I began to read it. She talked about how her father gave her a ring once and asked her if she would consider making a promise to God, him, and her future husband to stay a virgin till marriage, and on her wedding day, her husband would remove the ring and replace it with her wedding ring. She did it, and well the story really touched me and I realized that this was something I wanted to do. I never before had heard of people doing this. This was the first time I heard of this. So a couple days later I head over to James Avery in the Mall in search for the perfect ring to represent my vow. As luck would have it sometimes, I found a gold ring with a cutout cross, which happened to be the same exact ring that Jessica has in representation of her vow. I decided to get it because it also reminded me of how one person can touch someone's life so deeply. Not only that, but with the cross in the ring, everytime I look at it, I remember that this vow is not just to my future husband but to God also, the one who has given me all I have. So I purchased the ring, and we're driving home listening to the radio and all of a sudden out of nowhere, I remembered something that happened several months earlier . . . My dream. Well I guess you could say that I realized that it was not a messed up dream like I had thought. All I can say is that I was extremely happy. I realized that God did answer my prayer, and the cool thing to me is that I happened to ask him at the time that was right for me to know. And the guy in the dream...yes I know who the guy was. But who the guy was doesn't matter. I don't think the dream was for me to know who my soulmate is. The cool thing about finding your soulmate, is not knowing it at first. So to me this dream was God letting me know that yes I will be getting married in my future. But not only that, but this vow that I later would decide to take will be held throughout my life. His way of telling me that as temptations will probably approach me, I'll always see myself through it and keep this vow whole. That I'll walk down that aisle on my wedding day wearing a White Wedding Dress proving to everyone in attendance that some people these days still do walk down there with the real meaning of the color white, and can still prove that purity is beautiful and worth keeping.
Some of you may think that I'm some idiot, some crazy fool, or well just whatever. I don't care, I respect that. Not any two people are the same. We're all different in our own way. So just respect me as I respect you.
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